9/11 celebration?

Yeah.. I'm sure by the title that you are confused. Today is 9/11. It is also a few of my best friends birthdays. I am the shortest one in all black. They all turned 13 today!! I can't believe that we have gotten this far together. I love them all to death and I don't know what I would do without them. They are my world and my breath. I can't wait to explore the rest of the world with them. :*

Happiness.

One of the main things that make me happy are my high school football games. I am on the middle school but the entire district is allowed to go to the games. But mostly middle schoolers  in high schoolers go. If you want to see me you would never expect me to be the kind of girl that would like to go to football games. But its just something about them that makes me feel so happy instantaneously. Now if you don't know I'm not a fan of big crowds. But it doesn't really bother me during these football games because I know that I have friends with me and that I am safe because my school district is in a very family-friendly environment. The stands at my high school are very big. I am very lucky to be going to a school like I am going to because there are not many schools in the Wisconsin area that are like mine. My school is very lucky to have all of the extracurricular things such as art, Gym, drama club, a big stage, sports teams, we are just very lucky to have what we have. But anyways at the football games people are loud people are screaming happieness and it just makes me so overjoyed to see everyone having a good time. I like the nighttime, I'm not a very big fan of the daytime and as you all may know football games or at least Varsity  football games take place during the nighttime. All of the big lights and everything is just so perfect in the moment.  One of my favorite games of all time is the homecoming game. Everything was so perfect the stands are packed your screen people are yelling everyone is filled with happiness and that's the only thing I could ever ask for. 

Tell me what makes you happy. See you next time, bye!! 

Update, and new thoughts!

Hello! So I know I've been away for a while, but now I'm back and better and I'm so excited for the future. So school just started a few days ago, and if you don't know, I hate school. It's just people are so unoriginal, if that makes any sense. Everyone tries to be like everyone else even though on the inside you are something totally unique. But I feel like I've changed. I feel like I'm not afraid to be the real me anymore, i'm not afraid of the words that people will call me. The only reason that that's stuff doesn't hurt me anymore is because I know the truth and even if they try to tell me who I am or what I am I know that none of it is true. I hope you one day can be like that too. But anyways… for the past couple of days I've been somewhat depressed, it's honestly so hard to explain why or when I get depressed because, sometimes I can't control it I guess it's too hard to say why I feel that way, because I don't know. If you ever struggled with depression like me you know how annoying it is when someone asks you why you feel that way but you honestly don't even know yourself. Tell me how your school year is going and if you have any questions, concerns or just need some help with anything just know that I will always be here and you can email me when ever you would like. Stay happy and know that there will always be people out there that love you, talk to you soon. :* 

A small set back..

Im sorry I havent posted in a while..

I have been feeling more depressed than usual, and my depression makes me want to sleep. Im sorry. school will be starting back up really soon, and i have a few ideas for that.. one again I am very sorry. Smile forever and always. 

RIP

Rest in peace Robin Williams. I hope your in a better place now. Yet another suicide has hit the earth everybody. Why did he do it? No one will ever know. I know people feel really bad for him, but it was his decision. I don't know if you guys will understand this, but suicide is one of the most selfish things anyone can ever do. Just think about it, you take your own life, not even thinking about the people that really love you. I mean he had kids,  a wife. He ended his suffering by just passing it on to his friends and family. This kind of thing happens everyday. I'm so sorry to all of the families that have lost a loved one to suicide.  I brought this up because people think that it is a joke. In vines people always joke about it. It's all over the internet, it's honestly ridiculous. If you just think about it, we are living this beautiful life. We are blessed to be breathing. Once someone takes their own life, there is no going back. You will be gone forever. Just if you don't believe this, you are loved. You are beautiful, you are perfect just the way you are, and no one will ever have the power make you question your own life. I guess some colors are just darker than others.

Fashion Trends?

Troye Sivan tweeted something like this "I feel so sorry for the people that actually have mental illnesses and other people are trying to turn them into fashion trends." I smiled when I saw that, because it is absolutely 100% true. I hate when people that actually don't have a mental illness try to convince other people that they actually do. First off, having a mental illness is not cool, yes it does make you different, but it is not fun. When I used to have social media, people would cut themselves and then post the picture on some site. Sometimes the captions would say ' help' or 'lost'. I feel deeply sorry for the people that are actually struggling with self-harm, but throughout all the time of me being in therapy all the people I have ever met that has a hard time with that kind of stuff would NEVER post pictures of their cuts on the internet. They are your personal business, and you should keep them to yourself. Cutting though has become one of the things that seems cool to society. The thing though is that people actually struggle with those things. Self harm is literally cutting open your own body. I cannot find a single way at how that could be cool. People really need to understand that that is not cool, it is extremely offensive. I'm honestly just going to leave it at that. Stay strong forever and always.  

!!Amazing book!!

!! This is literally my all time favorite book!! I 100% recommend you read it. It is so heart warming, and it made me soo happy while I was reading it!

(This book has nothing to do with the book fifty shades of grey If you would like to know)